Hey all, been ages since I've been here. In the midst of major school deadlines, my computer died, had to get a new one in a single evening, and I just haven't made it back.
So, as to my question. T and I just yesterday had what may be the best, most emotionally connected, most mutually fulfilling session we've ever had.......the morning after my father's funeral. If you find it odd that I'm posting this question so soon, just know that Dad had advanced Alzheimer's, and that it was a quick painless heart attack that took him, which in my heart of hearts saved him from a much worse death. So I really am at peace, because I feel he finally is.
T and I had had several soul-searching conversations in the days between Dad's death in the wee hours of NYE morning and the funeral on Thursday. T thinks these talks are what allowed it to build over a few days. It was a battle for me--part of me said "not at a time like this" and the other part said "you're only human, it's okay". Once I finally permitted myself to go there, we had the best, most in-tuned make-out I think we've ever had. Then as things advanced our rhythms synced instantly, helping make the rest of it the best he thinks we've ever done.
Looking back, it still just seems odd to gravitate toward such things at such times. Am I over-thinking?