It sounds as though he is not all that experienced, either. Look at it as learning together. His being special, as you describe, does raise the ante in your mind but for him anything you do will likely be more than acceptable. You must begin somewhere.

If you have had these experiences with other men, you know what to expect. You do not have the problem of being presented with that mouthful that makes you want to gag. And he has never given that.

Two relative neophytes together need to teach each other and you are a major step ahead with your past experience.

Each new relationship has a new "Square One" from which to begin. Prior experience equates to knowledge not skill. When you learned to ride a bicycle were you a good rider from the beginning? Practice made you better as you gained confidence and skill.

Making love is not what we do to each other, it is what we do with and for each other. A relationship is a partnership. Explore and learn together. Communication is key to any good partnership. With regard to making love, this also includes providing feedback on how each of you is responding to the other's caresses and for what you need now/next. Neither of you are mind readers so some sort of guidance is required. Without it you'll probably be right about half the time. With something so important who wants this as a "batting average"?

The dynamics of each relationship will be different from previous ones because the people involved are different. Each of us has likes, dislikes, and preferences that may be different from someone else. So, you want to please him, and he you; what better way to accomplish this than to tell each other what you like, and to show them how to do this or that. This is particularly true when it comes to stroking a penis or fingering a clitoris. Take each other's hand and guide each other's movements until the two of you can mimic your partner's technique of rhythm, pressure, etc. Then provide the feedback that can be either verbal or non-verbal. There is a how-to article on this as well as much more useful information listed in the Index. I suggest that the two of you read the many articles in order to gain insight, knowledge, and, ideas.

Please review the article on the how-to of oral sex. I can assure you that short of scraping his skin with your teeth, just about anything you do with your lips and tongue will be enjoyable to him. If he has not experienced oral stimulation before then his only reference is his imagination. Be assured, the real thing will trump anything he can imagine. The more you work together the better you both will become. Fear not. As President JFK once remarked: "proceed with all possible 'vigah'"! In other words, go for it, take your cues from his reactions, talk about what each of you like, and as I said above: explore and learn together.

As a Ballroom dance instructor I frequently encounter and run up against the "fragile male ego" that tells the guy that I can't or won't go dancing because I have to perform perfectly and I know that I can't so I'm not going to even try and embarrass myself. The flip side to this is that I have to dance perfectly for "her" yet knowing I cannot, why bother trying. What men do not understand is that women know this yet only want to cuddle with you out there at the very least. What I tell my students is go to a dance to "practice". The mindset is that if I go to practice I can make mistakes, pick myself up, dust myself off, and go on. To this day, I go dancing to practice. Practice making love.

[FONT=Times New Roman][SIZE=3]It would be very difficult to give a blowjob that was unpleasant for him. Especially if it is his first time getting one, he is going to be trilled with what ever you do. Do what ever you fell comfortable with, but don’t be worried about him not loving it, I can guarantee you he will. [/SIZE][/FONT]

When the desire outweighs the fear - then you're ready and not before.