It's been about five weeks since my girlfriend and I started going together. We're close, and I've explored the thought of lesbian sex and found it quite attractive. Still, I have reserved giving her my virginity for a later date. But I just can't explain one sick fantasy that I have recently developed.
To make it short, I want to walk into a crowded shopping center completely naked, be caught by a very attractive female securty guard, and be forced to have sex with her in front of everyone. It also involves bing penetrated roughly vaginally and anally with a baton, being handcuffed, and finally being tied up with my legs apart and dripping on the floor.
This fantasy doesn't really fit me at all because I'm normally modest and quiet and easily embarrassed, yet every time I think of it I get REALLY turned on. Should I even be thinking about this?
As long as it remains a fantasy and not something you wish to act upon what you fantasize about is your fantasy. Many have very unusual fantasy's. When you begin to act upon it is when you need to concern yourself.
You have this fantasy precisely because you are modest and shy. If you were all big and baad, your fantasies would be different - That's the point of fantasies! And no, you're not sick. This is a fairly common fantasy.
This one is best left a fantasy.