Hi there! 1st of all, from one survivor of childhood sexual abuse to another, I want to tell you that I think it's great you're pleasuring yourself in safe ways!!! I'm a mom now myself, but I won't try to talk you into sharing any of this with yours for many reasons: for one thing, I only know as much about you as you're willing to type online.... But, masturbating is a very safe, healthy choice & you have every right to feel proud of making that choice -- I hope you continue to focus on this method rather than seeking pleasure from other people not only for the physical medical dangers, but also because of the psychological/emotional factor (being responsible for your own good feelings is a wonderful state of being)

ANYWAY, sorry to ramble

As I said, I'm a survivor of CSA too & at 26 years old I'm still having trouble with pleasing/pleasuring myself. 10 years ago I was making very risky decisions that I'm still paying for

& at this point I'm having to re-learn a whole bunch of stuff.... The best I can say about masturbating is that you don't always have to cum -- it's just supposed to feel good, comfortable ... so it's all up to you -- just explore yourself & recognize what you enjoy, what you don't, get creative but be safe.... If you like to read there are a couple books I could recommend? Feel free to PM me if you want.