Rape Survey (girls only plz)
My answers will be filled out just so you know my answers.
Have you been raped? yes
How street/alley, or relationship rape? street/alley rape
If you have been raped what age? 17
Any emotional aftermath? cutting and suicidal thoughts and actions
Do you know someone who's been raped? Not besides myself
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? Yes, I was shot
Any other comments...
Have you been raped? Not fully
How street/alley, or relationship rape? Cousins
If you have been raped what age? 19
Any emotional aftermath? I hate my family
Do you know someone who's been raped? My mom, grandma and sister, by family
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? His hands were dirty, gave me a really bad uti and caused scaring.
Any other comments... I was camping with my family 2 hours away from home, long drive home by myself.
that sucks i mean you'd think family would be more well loving my god society these days
Have you ever been raped? Yes
How street/alley, or relationship rape? Husband
If you have been raped what age? 29
Any emotional aftermath? Suffer from Depression/Anxiety
Do you know someone who's been raped? friends
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? Not physically injured,but emotionally scarred
Any other comments. I became pregnant twice as a result of my husband raping me during our marriage.Had a miscarriage and carried the other child to full term.I love my son unconditionally irrespective of how he was conceived.Not with my husband anymore.Have a partner who loves and respects me,and never forces himself onto me.
Have I ever been raped - No.
@Aphrodite
I also suffer from depression though mine isn't brought on by abuse I'm just very pessimistic about life. I was once asked what do I care about in life my answer was short and depressing "Nothing and noone, my birth-parents abandoned me and I have no future." the second part aint true as I am currently attending Harvard and I do love this place... it's home to me. My adoptive parents said home is where you're happy and when you're happy, well now I am happy still pesimistic and beleive emotion is a sign of weakness. I can watch Marley and Me without crying, such a sad movie and the dog was so cute now I'm mad I admitted my true feelings hasnt happened since 11th grade.
Hey is your last name Esalda. If so I know you, I'm in your Engliish class I sit behind you and we share a dorm so Hi Kat.
Okay, so your birth-parents weren't the sort of parents any sane child would want and your adoptive parents are ones any child would wish for - sounds like you got a GREAT deal - "traded-up" in fact and yet, you're wasting your life being pessimistic?!?!
So when does a fortress become a prison - answer: when it stunts your growth.
I'm so sorry for what has happened to you lovely ladies and anyone who will post her story on this thread.
Katelynn, I feel for you. And I can imagine it hurts that the people that gave you your essence of life have abandoned you. But I do agree with EEK. You have parents that love you dearly. And as much as I value the biology of parenthood and the importance of the wonder of birth, I think it only "makes" you parent when you lovingly care for your child, as you watch it grow and stimulate it to thrive. Perhaps your "adoptive" parents, should not have that adjective attached to them, but simply be your parents?
As for your questions:
Have you been raped? No, but he did attempt to
How street/alley, or relationship rape? By an unknown teenager, on my block, while I was playing wearing rollerskates.
If you have been raped what age? 9
Any emotional aftermath? I repressed the fact it happened shortly after, causing emotional distress and a total lack of sexual desire throughout my teens. You could say I disconnected myself from my body and my sexual development flatlined until my early twenties. Once I started on my journey of sexual discovery with a loving and caring man, I had to overcome quite some issues, some I'm still overcoming today. The great news is I've developed into a vibrantly sexual multi-orgasmic woman :)
Do you know someone who's been raped? Not in person, but I've had a few lengthy and personal conversations with women over the internet that have been sexually attacked in one way or another.
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? Not injured, just hurt. Headache and a bump on my head (he had smashed my head against the pavement). Bruises everywhere and an overall soreness, particularly in my breasts and genital area. Also a UTI shortly after, but I'm not entirely sure if that's related, since I was prone to that.
Any other comments... It is typical how people can experience that the emotional aftermath is translated into physical responses. And how it could take only one bad first experience to form a basic assumption or primal concept. For example: to me french kissing became associated with the concepts of choking, danger, fear, etc. Since my attacker was basically choking me with his tongue in the back of my throat, which was my "first kiss". With my lover, for a long time my body immediately responded to french kissing with adrenaline-peaks that are associated with fear, even though I did not fear him. Remarkably; your body and mind are incredibly flexible. You can recondition and replace this by the proper concepts and happy responses. It just takes time and loving patience. Loving yourself and your body is the first step. Hold on to that!
For anyone interested, you may like to look into: [url=http://www.birthintobeing.com/]Limbic imprint re-coding by Elena Tonetti. She focuses primarily on healing birth-trauma, but I think this theory relates to the aftermath of other trauma as well and provides key on how to recode it.
yes my last name is Esalda. So Brooke before I forget why are you so annoying? joking but you're very pretty and look prettier while sleeping. hehe I'm no creeper just think people look much more beautiful in there sleep. So y don't you talk to me in person
[QUOTE=RedRoses;273141]I'm so sorry for what has happened to you lovely ladies and anyone who will post her story on this thread.
Katelynn, I feel for you. And I can imagine it hurts that the people that gave you your essence of life have abandoned you. But I do agree with EEK. You have parents that love you dearly. And as much as I value the biology of parenthood and the importance of the wonder of birth, I think it only "makes" you parent when you lovingly care for your child, as you watch it grow and stimulate it to thrive. Perhaps your "adoptive" parents, should not have that adjective attached to them, but simply be your parents?[/QUOTE]
Well, I never let love in. I suppressed all of my emotions so that I couldn't be emotional hurt ever again. I guess I never realized how important emotion is, it makes us human. I suppose in that matter you are both correct and without my parents (wow that took effort to type) I wouldn't be where I am now. I still feel every bit of emotion I just don't show it. Brooke makes me hate myself because she's so pretty (even more so when sleeping) and my proffessors make me mad because they give alot of work. Oh by the way I graduate in 5 days, so excited.
Ok because you're in MY bed and crying I will type this for you Kat. Two things "GET THE HELL OUT OF MY BED" and two I'm kinda creeped out that you watched me sleep. Please stop crying, why are you crying, don't cry. Oh and don't ruin my contacts I left them under my pillow in the case. So happy you're graduating with me maybe we could live together after this whole college thing just you gonna have to stay out of my bed and you are pretty so shut it I'm jealus of you but btw I use a curling iron.
I'm not good at this whole emotional help thing, I majored in Engineering and Psycology yet I can't put in words wat I want to say.
Katelynn, perhaps crying is what you need now. It's probably better to let it all out that way, than keeping all your emotions locked inside you. Did you know your body actually starts pumping adrenaline when you hold back tears? Allowing tears to flow may help your body and mind to re-balance. Yes, emotions are human, Katelynn. They are not a sign of weakness. Does it not take courage to be truthful to how you feel? Hang in there, girl!
It sounds to me like you have a sweet dormy. Both of you; congratulations on graduating!
People are pretty when they sleep, because they display such serenity. I know because I've many times watched others, while I myself was having trouble sleeping. It may sound creepy, but it's not so much with the right intentions.
Awwww thanks I'm sure Kat thinks the same you know if she read the post. She stopped crying and just fell asleep. When she wakes up she may need an advil. I'm not all smiles though, I just feel bad if I don't try to help someone.
"Anna, you're a bit dramatic don't you think?"- Fitting In by Katelynn Esalda
This means, it has been published and will be in stores in 1 year from tommorow midnight release. Good Job. Title Subject to change until a week before release.
I can't beleive it I got published! I am so freaking happy right now omg just the mention of my publication makes me happy. I can't beleive it. Oh my God, I got published
"and her heart raced with glee as she was told the news."- Fitting In
even better my rapist was caught today and will be put to death for the rape of 20 girls and murder of 15 girls, 12 senior citizens, and 9 cops.
My dad called and he said "Brookelynn Isora Jones." Oops I guess I'min trouble. rest of conversation:
"Yes, Dad?"
"Where is that dormmate of yours that Kat girl?"
"Sleeping, why?"
"I hear you two were graduating called to say congrats."
"And I thought I was in trouble."
"haha got ya didnt I?"
"Don't ever scare me like that again."
oh and hee wanted to tell Kat congrats on publishing a first book.
Happy Birthday Katelynn Isadora Esalda. Have a great 22nd.
And as I forgot yesterday,
RIP
Tatsune Ileta Esalda
Loving sister, daughter, and friend
1989-2003
May she rest in heaven with the Lord
I do not have parents any child would wish for just parents that had a racist son and loved me. My brothers racism towards asians mainly me and my biological sister ended after I was raped, when he said he loved me, I burst into tears then even though I couldn't move my shoulder because I was shot. thank you for your love all of you. By the way if you are abandoned by your birth parents you only see that and I was diagnosed with depression still have it.
Have you been raped? yes
How street/alley, or relationship rape? family friend & then a guy I went to school with
If you have been raped what age? 13 & 16
Any emotional aftermath? Depression, low self-esteem, cutting & Anxiety
Do you know someone who's been raped? Not besides myself
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? The first time I was still a virgin...
Any other comments... The first time was by my friend's dad (both families were friends)when I was spending the night. The 2nd time I was forced into the bathroom
As I never answered
Have I been raped- no
Have you been raped? Attempted
How street/alley, or relationship rape? street/boyfriend at his house
If you have been raped what age? 15
Any emotional aftermath? Embarrassment, stopped dating boys. Possibly helped me develop a very unhealthy crush.
Do you know someone who's been raped? my mom when she was 18
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? Yes, I punched him when he grabbed my ripped my shirt and undid my bra. Didn't know punch would hurt my fingers so bad
Any other comments...I had no ride home, about a mile walk home. Walking home with a ripped shirt was very embarrassing. Never told anyone until I posted something about it here last week. Told my mom 2 days later, over three months after it happened.
Have you been raped? not exactly but when I was quite young (pre teen) I was with an older teen, multiple times. It was NOT actual sex but very sexual. I personaly dont consider it as rape but I suppose many would
How street/alley, or relationship rape? it was often in my room or other parts of my house generaly late night it was a BF of my sister
If you have been raped what age? pre teen I am cloudy on the details abit but it was around 10 and abit at 9
Any emotional aftermath? extreame guilt at times but not often...mostly the guilt was due to his datteing my sister. But I do not truly regret anything we did, beyond the fact that he was not single.
Do you know someone who's been raped? saddly I know several including 3 girls raped by there father as kids
Were you physically injured in the act if so how? no not at all he was very gentle and kind. I felt absolutly no fear and as little pain as possible.
Any other comments...I included this because many would say I was molested. However I personaly dont feel like I was abbused. I accept it was wrong on BOTH sides and should not have hapend, but it did happen I dont regret it. Nor do I dont blame or hate him either