I'm 32, male, and still a "virgin". Had my 1st "sexual experience" (but no penetration) with another person last year. Man it was good.
My story:
My father was violent toward my mother and then me as a teenager. This ruined my confidence in... well.. everything including interest in girls/women and made me commit to never being violent toward anyone - women, bullies, etc (in some ways, a good cause). However, this also turned me into the perfect nerd. My teenage face oozing in acne contributed as well. Never had a problem with peer pressure 'cause all my friends were nerds as well. Never had a girlfriend either, though I tried, and asked, only to be always rejected.
In my 20's I sought help, refuge and solace in religion. Boy did it work. It helped maintain a poor self esteem and a rather childish attitude toward females and sex (dirty, sinful etc.). Even though I longed for a girlfriend over all this time and fantasized about sex and masturbated and all that, I never had one.
Over the past few years I have discarded religion and ties with my abusive father and I am now trying to improve my personality and my life and my self esteem and confidence so I and somehow get a woman, or some women, and get laid.
I'm not concerned about peer pressure 'cause there isn't any. Don't patronise me about "doing the right thing" or "doing what's right for me" or "doing it with the right person" or "being ready at the right time" or anything else like that. And don't chastise me with moral judgements about my reasons for doint it - selfish or otherwise.
I'm at a point now where I just want to experience the joy of sex with a beautiful woman. As I said at the top I have had limited experience already and what I did experience, I liked and I'd like some more.
The gentle carress of fingers on skin,
The taste of her lips on mine,
The smell of her skin,
etc...
Well..sounds like your on your way to some excellent "self-recovery" milestones!
Now, look, if you want to f*** a hot woman - find a reputable escort company and go on a "date" with your choice of hot women.
Yes, it's paying for sex....but, consider it an investment in your sexual education and overall mental health.
Of course it would be nice to lose your virginity to the girl of your dreams, but it sounds like you're looking to put the past behind you, let go of alot of social moreys.....so, i say see a professional.
Just my thoughts!
be confident, it doesnt matter what you look like, haha, if you have the attitude, you'll pick up girls. go to clubs, wear nice clothes, buy girls drinks and be sweet, chivelrous and kind. you'll get laid in no time. If you act like you know what youre doing and what you want, without being pushy or domineering, you'll get it. Remember, be safe! I know this sounds lame but its so important! My best friend got HPV from sleeping with one person. One person!! so just be careful when youre trollin for booty. haha. Ive slept with a guy my friends labeled as a nerd. I didnt care. he was so sweet, kind and attentive in and out of bed, that I didnt even think twice about what my friends called him. good luck!
Okay... I'm not sure there's a question here.
For what it's worth, it sounds to me like you are on the right track. It has been my experience that it really doesn't matter what you look like (short, tall, fat, thin, young, old), there will always be people who find you attractive. Whatever you are is just what someone else is looking for.
So go find them.
You just have to make yourself available.
Just remember to be safe.