Ok i wanted to briefly share a new experience.

its sunday and its been a good weekend with my special lady.

so we paused the dvd we were watching and started making out.

we started talking about some kinky new ideas.

We started talking about voyeurism, the idea of watching somebody or having somebody watch you.

she was wearing a skirt, i told her to go the other side of the room and start masturbating then i would i watch and then start masturbating as well.

Watching her from a distance was insanely hot, and all of the sudden i thought about the camera i had in my night stand.

I took it out and started recording her, i stood up and got closer. she initiated oral and one thing lead to another and we recorded our first home video. we had amazing sex and took turns recording each other.

afterwards we watched ourselves and it was very empowering and we just felt like we were insanely sexy people. I then decided without her input to delete it :(

we have only been dating for 4 months and well i will always have the camera and i will let her feel comfortable in time without any pressure to please me. trusting me with something so private like a recorded video i can safely assume will take more time.

being someone who once had a terrible self image (used to weight 270lbs and now down to 210) this night was amazing and has given me new perspective on just how confident i feel as a sexual being.