No explanation.

[amy_simcott]

Hi, me again.
Basically, im not sure why but i've been feeling really low lately.
It started about two weeks ago, I have everything to feel good about, ok so I gave up my job, but that was just a matter of finding another one and yeah I have my arthritis but its not bothering me so much right now, I have a fantastic boyfriend, I am really enjoying college and my life is just on the up in general.
But over these past two weeks I have just felt really hollow, and down.
My boyfriend has obviously noticed as I am normally a very happy and bouncy kinda girl.
I kept telling him there was nothing wrong - because technically there wasnt.
But last thursday I just let it all out - explained that im not feeling myself.
He asked me to make a doctors appoinment, so I have - I see the doctor on Wednesday.
My bf has been really supportive and beyond patient about this, he is just really worried about me. It hasnt affected us yet - sex life is still great.
Its just everytime I feel really happy - it just suddenly and randomly goes away.
I dont understand it.
This week is alot worse as I actually have things to worry about now. There are no jobs available which is hard on me as I need the money.
But also I have found out over the weekend that my mum is getting close to divorce with my step dad, i'v been through two with my mum - and it was really hard on me.
There is also my 6 year old sister involved now - and I really am worried how this would affect her. So I am constantly thinking of that, I couldnt sleep properly last night because of this.

But aside from all there...do you guys know of any reason why my mood just drops the way it does? It's really not normal for me. And I dont want my bf to have to constantly look after me the way he is, he is going out of his way to make me feel happy - giving me back rubs, constantly dropping whatever he is doing to cuddle me - i love it, but I want him to be happy and not feel like his efforts are wasted.
Im so confused, and the more this continues...the worser I worry if that makes sense.

[sera300]

AS:

First it would be helpful if you gave us an idea if you are taking meds & what ones for the RA. I do recall you saying you had to re-fill a RX when you went home? Did you skip it? Do you take Pred.?

Second, perhaps the reality of divorce and you were happy is making you think or dragging you down? You are concerned about your sister? And mom? And now feel your old home is not going to be the same again?

Third, do you have any history of being manic in the past?

[amy_simcott]

Well this divorce issue is after I started feeling down.
And my Methotrexate does not affect my mood - iv been on it three years - all it does it kill the pain.
And no, no history, I'v always been rather happy, more so since I met my bf.

[EvilEvilKitten]

Divorce is NOT the end of the world - Jeez! Humans change over time and so do marriages sometimes for better and sometimes for worse. Stop trying to box with God and make life too pretty for words.

Why are you down? How would we know? Perhaps you're being bi-polar. Perhaps you're bored. Perhaps there's a rice shortage in China. Doubtful but it could happen and that could be why.

OR you could just be growing up and taking a hard look at your life and seeing that it does NOT seem to be heading toward your dream.

[Ducy]

eh depending on how severe these drops are, I could see it as a ppossible depression. NOthing too drastic but if your going from being happy to just suddenly dropping down then I would consider being evaluated for either bipolar or depression.

I suffered from depression for a while, constantly sad, there were days when I was on top of the world and then bam...all gone.

But my sex life didnt suffer, if anything I was hornier cuz it was the only time I could pull my attention to something other than sadness

[amy_simcott]

Well my sex life isnt suffering - it is jus the same, want it all the time lol.
And my life is going towards my dream - that my point, everything is how I want and need it to be.
But yeah, I am seeing the doctor tomorrow and will discuss this with them

[sera300]

Looking at your answers; I think you are internalizing your Mom's Life & your sister's too much. As pointed out; divorce is not the end of the road. Sometimes it's a preface to a new & better life.

MTX? Doubt that has anything to do with it...it think much has to do with your personal life. Every one gets down but if you feel you are having swings in your mood which are not normal (or hormonal) I would say be certain you follow up with a doc. They are the ones which see you & can diagnose you properly...or tell you nothing is abnormal..Good luck with your appointment!

[smallestoftheclan]

Methotrexate is not a fun med to be on. I've been on and off of that for dermatomyositis. Also remember the time of the year we are entering; winter. Are you also on a steroid?
We spend more time inside than we do in summer and well it's alot harder to motivate to go out in the cold than in the warmer weather.
Get as much sun as you can, it really does have a way of cheering you up. And find things to look forward to. Also muscle issues do have a way of feeling worse in the cold weather as well.

[lnt1103]

I think I heard somewhere that 70% of people with chronic illnesses suffer from some form of depression at some point. As an insulin-dependent Diabetic I've been there myself. It's completely normal and natural.

What did the doctor say today?