scared of pushing him away

[kelz]

Hi everyone, this might be a lengthy first post!!

iv been with my bf for almost a year and i keep doing things tht i know are likely to push him away. like bringing up things tht have happened in the past cuz i wind myself up about them and it really hurts him. im always moody of a saturday, i think cuz most bad things tht have happened between us have happened on a sat. sometimes i can get angry with him for no reason at all (i suffer quite badly from PMS) and can be really nasty, afterwards i apologise and hes really understanding. it seems like im being a stereotypical female, which i hate cuz i know ppl, especially men, dont like tht. does anybody else do this, or is it just me? iv been better recently now iv noticed im doing it, i just want to be a good gf.
we satisfy each other sexually, but sometimes it feels like a guessing game as to whether hes in the mood or not. hes the one i lost my virginity to, so i dont really have much experience. the times when i get it wrong and get "rejected" affect me greatly, it makes me think he never wants sex, or tht hes not attracted to me. does this happen with anyone else? is there a way of training myself to think differently, more positively? i dont exactly love myself and i know tht this frustrates him, so maybe i need to learn to love myself? i feel like i know what i should be doing but im just not doing it!

any advice would be welcomed greatly, apologies for the lengthy post!!

[EvilEvilKitten]

Okay a few tips:

1. SERIOUSLY work on controlling your emotions and your PMS - there's no need to be a 'psycho' every month.

2. you do have to like yourself

3. think about possibly branching out because if he's rejecting your advances when you desire him - that may not be good for you - all him and no you - if you get my drift. He may be too sure of you. Go ahead and push him away once!