No Porn Weekly Log

[DarkOne12]

I've been trying to stop looking at porn so it does not destroy my marriage.

Quick backround: I am a 10 on the sexual level; I like porn, I like anal with toys(recieving since I have yet to give it), and have dom/sub, ownership, and other types of fetishes. My wife though is a 3 on the sexual level which is okay. The problem comes that during the years we were dating, she and I would look at certain types of porn (drawings mainly) but later on after we got engaged, she didn't like the idea oflooking at it anymore. I promised her to stop but slipped up and she almost left me. I promised again to stop but have slipped numerous times since then. It is mainly my huge fetish that makes me slip up.

I don't like living a lie or hiding the truth anymore. Normally I tried to work on this by myself but I think I need more assistance. So I am going to post here each day I do not look ay anything. ^.^ It will help me keep a track.

I will start tomorrow (since I looked today). And I will keep it on track.

Please cheer me on. I love my fetishes but I am not going to ruin my marriage over them. Thanks for any support

[Demonic-Booze]

i think what ur doing is a very honorable thing. ur trying to change for the woman u love. i too have stopped looking at porn for my girl cause now i have a higher respect for the female body.
uve got my full support and i know u can do it.

[DarkOne12]

Originally Posted by Demonic-Booze

i think what ur doing is a very honorable thing. ur trying to change for the woman u love. i too have stopped looking at porn for my girl cause now i have a higher respect for the female body.
uve got my full support and i know u can do it.

Thanks...it's very hard. I truely miss looking at what I'm into but I will do this for her. I just need to work on self control...

*Raises a glass* Here's to day one starting Now. ^.^

[yuna5]

You're so nice! Best wishes on this. I'd do almost anything to change for my husband too- if i had one.

[unknown11]

hey maybe convince your wife to do a little bit more sexual things like what you want so you wont think of it so much

[emily_11]

your a good man, you sound very honorable and it looks like you truly love this woman, congrads!

[champloo]

Haha, I'm working on 2 years clean from the stuff myself

Good luck

[DarkOne12]

Originally Posted by emily_11

your a good man, you sound very honorable and it looks like you truly love this woman, congrads!

I wish I felt that way. The fact I have been unable to keep the promise as well as I wanted makes me feel like a heel.

And for the getting her into some of the sexual things I do; its very hard. She's comfortable playing with me anally and that's as far as I will push it. She shut sexually down after my first broken promise so its been hard.

I will repost again later tonight before I sign off with my 1st day announcement. ^.^ Thanks for the well wishes.

[sera300]

I think it's like an alcoholic or addict (this is how I felt when I quit smoking & slipped a few times) when you fall off you start over again--remember we are human and we make mistakes. She should be proud of you and the whole-hearted attempt you are making to please her. Keep up the good work and don't forget we are human!!!

[DarkOne12]

Originally Posted by sera300

I think it's like an alcoholic or addict (this is how I felt when I quit smoking & slipped a few times) when you fall off you start over again--remember we are human and we make mistakes. She should be proud of you and the whole-hearted attempt you are making to please her. Keep up the good work and don't forget we are human!!!

thanks for the support ^.^ I am doing great fer day 1. As her being proud of me...that's a different issue. She discovers any slipup and she's divorcing me. That is why this is so serious *Sighs* So this is a quiet battle