Strange change in life

[DarkOne12]

Hey guys. I've written perviously about my wife wishing me to give up my biggest fetishes that have been a part of my sexuality for quite some time; slave/master fantasies, furries, threesomes, anal sex, porn (anything to do with sex wheather it is softcore or hardcore), erotica, etc. I wrote about how she knew how sexual I was before we were married and encouraged it until about 5 months before we were wed when she said she'd leave me if I looked at it again.

Well life has been hard, struggling with the desire to be as sexual as I used to be; talking to two very close fem friends about my fantasies to get it off my chest has helped alot but also allowed me to realize there are women out there who may like the same I do...So things grew tough the last few weeks in our marriage; it's been a bit more tense but then something odd happened.

I've always loved furry/furries since I was in elementry school and my fetish grew as I grew older. One thing about furries, however, I never told anyone was I loved the female/male, female/female art, but also the male/male as well. I like being penetrated with toys (my wife likes to do that to me thank god) and sometimes I fantasies about the male/male furries I see. Now this only goes with furries (I've looked at real porn of the sort and it does nothing for me) and I finally admitted this to my 2 female friends which was a big step for me. (My wife would NEVER accept this fact due to soemthing involving her father years ago. Her story to tell).

Since then I've lost my craving to porn and erotica. Oh sure I have a fantasy here or there...but since admitting this final step I've felt so alive and free. My love life with my wife has gotten back together (though she dun know about this) and things seemed more relax.

I dunno why admitting that last fetish made me feel so much better, but it did and I am happier for it. I just wanted to say that here; to encourage others not to hide fetishes or desires from people. Tell them to those who will support you and you'll feel more alive. As my friend Rose said

"Nothing to be ashamed about. There's nothing wrong with enjoying pleasure and sex."

And wiser words couldn't have been said, especilly for a very sexual person like me ^.^ Now I am happier, have less fantasies (I dunno why which is funny...but I am more comfortable now), and just more relaxed. Amazing how one admition will clear your view.