She broke-up

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a little reply to this post:

http://www.sexinfo101.com/forum/marr...t_do_i_do.html

She broke up with me, i'll post / edit some more details later :P It's getting so ****ing complicated :P

well to make a long story short.

Months before it was a bit hecthic between us, i bursted a little bit, but i thought things went oke beside that.
We agreed we seriously had to talk, anyway life continued and we went thursdaynight out to go carting and it was a nice night/good day we had alot of fun. She said she would message me the morning.

Friday she didnt message me i msged her, didnt received anything back i thought oh well, later she sended me an message if it was alright if she could come over to me at my place a for a bit.

And there she stood in her basketball outfit because she intmeaditly came from basketball, my mind swapped and realised we usually dont date on friday.

I asked lets sit downstairs? no she wanted to go upstairs, no problem with that. I thought perhaps she see's its better to see me alot anyway she said ''i dont want to anymore/i want to breakup'' in tears. i came to calm her down and tried to say comforting things, anyway she left after a hour. Then on wednesday i went to her place as suprise (because it was her birthday) and gave her flowers a gift ect. that last saturday when family night i didnt go she said i could come but i choose not to. I talked to her on wednesday and she said there might still be hope but she didnt want to give me false hope i tried to convince her to continue. anyway eventually i went home and saturday she gave an party i come over and it was very hectic we did touch eachother ect and go out but repeated she didnt want to go anymore, said she was drunk and was afraid to kiss me but not mean it then. in tears and in tears, i tried to hug her alot and dance with her, the way she joined me and i saw her eyes glowing (or whatever u call that) and other time she took me to the bathroom and cried i really cant do it. anyway sunday we talked it over on msn and it was an bit hectic. she wants to be friends or something she said when she broke up, well i dont, i choose her and i bassicly after two weeks dont think ive accepted it yet :P. anyway wedensday we are going to a concert (with a love theme) with the two of us.. I wonder how it will go :S i mean 9 MONTHS relationship im used to touch her and hug her and stuff. while now its supposed to be breaked up?