flirting with disaster

[-kythulhu-]

sometimes i just wanna kick my ass so bad!

there has been several times that i have done something, that i knew would upset my boyfriend in some shape, form or fashion, but yet i didn't do anything about it, till it was too late.

it seems that i can't stop "walking on the edge" and doing things that could possibly cause him to end our relationship, no matter how hard i try... i always seem to do something and f*** up in some way.

each time i do something, it hurts both of us a little more, and i'm always scared that i've done it for the last time. don't get me wrong, i love him more than absolutely anything in this world, despite how it seems, i care about him soo much and would do anything for him. i just don't know how i can change this. i don't ever mean to hurt him or cause him any ounce of pain or anything, but i can't seem to break this horrible chain.

any suggestions on how to change this would be greatly appreciated.

[Alspals69]

Well, i understand entirely. There is a lot of compomise involved in any relationship. It is easy to find yourself in a position were you want to do sometihing that won't go down well.

Sooner or later soemthing comes along that you can't resist. It doesn't make you bad... just isnt good for the two of you.

Hell i don't think this helps much. I think what i am saying is don't beat yourself up for being human. Of course i have been drinking beer tonight so i may be talking rubbish. lol.