I've heard it all before. I'm too young for sex, boyfriends, to even know what masturbation is...I'm 16. Jeez!
My name is Jenn, I'm 16 and have never had 'sex'. Well...I've had one boyfriend try, and I've had a few boys have their way with me. That's molestation, by the way. Well...I don't know why, but the only boys I have ever been close to have only wanted me for sex. I know I'm overweight and not at all good-looking. But I am like a magnet for perverted boys who just want a toy to mess around with!
And because I have known about sex since I was 6, I know about masturbation. Very well in fact. I've been doing it for years. But for some reason it all feels wrong. Like sex isn't something I should be doing. Like how you feel when you do something you know is wrong. Maybe it has something to do with my past. I don't know. But now I feel so uncomfortable with guys and sex. And women too, so don't even mention that. I need help...Big time...
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Yes, you need help - big time. Your self-image has driven a public reputation that makes yoou an easy target. Three things I can think of are:
1. Do not give up on the masturbation. That is completely normal and natural and keeps the flame burning.
2. Try a change of friendship groups to one in which the popular wisdom does not have you as an easy mark.
3. Get some psychological help both to enhance your self-image and deal with the molestation of the past. About 20% of all women have been sexually abused in some fashion and that stays with them forever.
I totally agree with Brandye. And if there was penetration with a penis during the "molestation" and you didn't want it to happen, that was actually RAPE. That needs to be reported to the police.
Low self-esteem causes girls to do things they might not normally do, like allowing boys to be sexual with them just for attention. The boys will talk to their friends and then their friends will try to do the same things to you. Sometimes it's difficult to say no, especially if you're a people pleaser, but you have to tell them no.
No, you're not too young physically for sex--I was having sex at that age. Looking back, I think MENTALLY, that age is too young for sex. We're not prepared for all the emotional things that go along with it.
I feel for you and hope you're able to get some help for yourself. Good luck!