before i knew what sex was [8-11] me and my nextdoor nieghbor used to get naked [she's a girl] and touch eachother and talk about being naked and sneak outside with shorts and no underwear then give ourselves wedgies, put different things against our vaginas and stuff. i used to put like pens in there and go to diner as my little "secret" then move around to i could stimulate myself...at like 10
at 13 i discovered cybering and porn
i found beastality and actually let my dog lick my pussy every once in a while
i think about sex so much but, oddly enough i didn't even get my first kiss till i was 15 and now i'm 16 and i lost my virginity 2 months ago
i also check out girls quiet often and imagine myself with them [i love my man still] but i really want to eat out a girl and stuff like that and i talk to my bf alot about what if i did stuff with a girl and could we have a 3 some and i talk to 2 of my friends [girls] about kissing other girls quiet a bit, hoping someday i'll get to
i look at alot of porn now and the only satisfying way i can masterbate is with a bath positioning myself under the faucet [hard]
is there something wrong with me, well i know there is but i just have never been able to talk to many people about this well, only one but i censor certain things out i just need to talk about it
No you are not wrong. As a child I and a female friend would (clothed) rub against each other on occasion. It was something we knew we would get in trouble if we got caught for but we are good friends still. We both have men and are happy with them. I have thought about being with a girl but I have found my love so I have lost any chance of trying that. I believe in giving myself to him alone. I would feel like I was cheating on him even with a threesome. You can retrain your body to come to other things it will just take patients.
Threesomes almost never end well.
As always, talking to a doctor never hurts.
anyone else?
The technique we use and rely on to masturbate is a type of conditioning. My suggestion is to return to square one and begin all over learning how to stimulate yourself with your fingers. This is the same advise recommended when people rely too much on vibrators and the intense sensations they give. You must retrain yourself to have orgasms with your fingers or your boyfriend will have trouble helping you to enjoy them. You have to be able to have orgasms regularly by your own fingers before you can expect a lover to assist. Once you develop a technique that works for you then you can show him and guide his movements several times until he learns to mimic this technique.