does this mean I'm gay

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Yeah, u r right. I don't love every woman that I met. Only a few and it felt hurt when they rejected me for what I'm. As of now I try not to think of penetrating women coz I just got rejected by 1 last month and I don't think I can take another rejection so soon. I'm currently with a mid-age guy who have a fetish for young ladyboy and would like to take this opportunity to explore myself with him.

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dancingdoc2 - thank for your tips and advise. I'll try that. Actually the current guy I'm with is much different from my previous guy. Although both are "shemale thrill seeker" or just having fetish for ladyboy, The first one I find a lot of things that I didn't like. Partly becoz prior to him, I only have fantasy & dreams which is far different from it. In fantasy smell, taste and touch are practically nonexistent. And becoz I've never smell, taste and touch the real thing, I was caught unexpectedly. Example: the real dick smells and the cum tasted strange. when he cum in my mouth I vomited!
Now fast forward 8 months later, two weeks ago I gave the current guy a blow job. Strange thing is I didn't mind the smell and cum in my mouth felt quite erotic and arousing. Kissing is somewhat erotic too. in contrast to the previous one, it is 180 degrees different. Now does that mean I'm getting used to it, or I'm desperate after so long or this 2nd guy is actually compatible with me. As far as romantic emotional feelings, there is none.

[dancingdoc2]

> I don't think I can take another rejection so soon.

It seems to me that you are investing way to much of your emotions, way to early in your relationships.

If your interest is in sex for sex sake, then do not try to make any more out of your emotional involvement than is necessary to do this.

If your interest is in creating a romantic relationship with someone, then take the time to "smell the roses" along the pathway. In other words, begin slowly and proceed slowly. Do not rush to the finish line, whatever that is. Begin a friendship, cultivate the friendship. Next, introduce some Necking and see how that goes. A few weeks later, move on to some Petting, and then Heavy Petting if things continue to blossom in the other areas of your friendship.

Eventually, the friendship will probably become love, and with love comes the outward expression that we manifest thru making love. If love does not materialize, perhaps "Friends with Benefits" will, either with this person or someone else down the line. If this does not happen, either you will have made a new friend, or, you will decide to move one to the next individual where the process begins, again.

> I try not to think of penetrating women coz

Why the fixation on penetration, male or female? Where is the "love" or the emotional involvement between the two of you?

Climaxing via the friction of intercourse (vaginal or anal) is great, although, I submit that what results from Foreplay (oral and manual stimulation) is much more intense. It will be even more so if there is some sort of connection between you and the other person.

Why not think about making love with to the person you love the most-you! and working on developing real bonds with others, second? You can often get a toy or your finger to do things in ways another individual cannot or at least without a lot of guidance.

All that said, what do you really want?
Sex for sex sake?
Lovin' another person?
Other? What?

[dancingdoc2]

> In fantasy smell, taste and touch are practically nonexistent.

True enough; although, you can play mind games with yourself and your fantasy by splitting your personality a little. Even though it is you and your body, you can in fact run your fantasy script on yourself as if it was the person in your fantasy. Strange, I know, but you can touch yourself, feel the sensations, yet have the hand, and, mouth, be that of the fantasy person.

> And becoz I've never smell, taste and touch the real thing, I was caught unexpectedly. Example: the real dick smells and the cum tasted strange. when he cum in my mouth I vomited!

As part of the information in the articles is the suggestion to raise the tip of your tongue to the roof of your mouth and let the ejaculate fly against the bottom surface. This will prevent the gag reflex from happening. You can swallow or not. If you choose to swallow, do so with a mix of saliva, water, soda, etc.

As for body odor, it is always better for people (men and women) to bathe or freshen up prior to oral activities. This is simple common courtesy and sanitation. (A long time ago one guy wrote stating he incorporated washcloth play with his partner before doing Foreplay activities. Now that's a novel idea.)

> Now fast forward 8 months later, two weeks ago I gave the current guy a blow job. Strange thing is I didn't mind the smell and cum in my mouth felt quite erotic and arousing.

That's progress.