Gay or stressed out

[Ducy]

First off…my girlfriend was molested when she was little and basically blocked out her entire childhood.

Well she has always been troubled because of it, before i started helping her deal with it, she would just start crying, would be really depressed, and wouldnt want to kiss me. partly because she wouldnt be interested, but also because she just didnt wanna be touched. But eventually she got through it, and now is a lot happier, and can even talk about it. sorta.

So last monday we fooled around a bit (she initiated pretty much everything) and then the next day it seemed like she wouldnt touch me. err well didnt wanna kiss me. I thought she was just worried because she thought her mom might come home early and we would be in big trouble (her mom is crazy by the way) But then about 4 days went by and she wouldnt kiss me still..well she would but she would pull away if i tried to push the kiss further (open mouth or whatever you wanna call it) so i asked her why and she said it was because she wasnt interested and didnt love me the way i loved her…and then she said she felt that way because she thought she was gay…Well i told her to not igve up yet. To give our relationship another chance because almost everyone i knew…even my gay uncle and his friends believed her straight. and considering the fact that she had said she loved fooling around, and she loved touching my errr places…i doubt that she could be..

Well i was holding onto her after we finished talking, and she was kinda just curled p in the fetal position, and all the sudden she just grabbed onto me and started crying and shaking, and as i tried to calm her, she told me she had no idea why she was crying…but after she was done crying, she kissed me, and like she just kept kissing me and stuff and like she told me she feltt her usual self, she didnt feel the same way she did a half hour ago.

So finally here is my questino, could all this worrying, and fear of being gay just be because of all the stress, and the fact that her sexual abuse is still affecting her. because our relationship has moved farther…both mentally and sexually, and like she has become extremely comfortable around me. Because she has questioned her orientation before and it usually during times of stress. so i think think the fact that there is stress, sexual abuse, and also her period starts in like 2 days so there are some more hormones. But what do you guys think? could i be right, or is it just that my girlfriend has some searching to do?

[sera300]

It could be stress. Sexual assault needs to be dealt with through a professional, encourage her to get help.

[Ducy]

Okay. because this has happened to her before the whole questioning thing. and it started when she was having like a depressed time (because of the molestation) and like we had just moved forward in our relationship (handjobs and fingering) and just recently we had moved to oral sex and she was feeling bad because she couldnt get used to my taste, but yet i still loved to do it to her. so i also think maybe because she was feeling bad and felt as if a straight person should like going down on their partner or something.

[sera300]

I say stick to the sexual assault, it may be resurfacing issues from her past.

[Ducy]

ok thanks a lot sera