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She's the only one working in our fam right now...me as well. There's a lot on my mom's mind now, she's in a new position at her job and we are all dealing with my brother at the moment.
She reached her breaking point last night and I have never seen her get so upset. My heart broke for her yesterday... I know she trusts me, but I think she's afraid of losing control of both of us kids. I've done well for myself, beat a lot of odds definitely...but I'm facing facts at the moment and I cannot be her mirror image.
She has had heart issues lately and I think she's a lot more stressed out than usual. Both of my parents are aware that I am on this site, and I am beginning to think since they can't have kids anymore naturally, that my mom needs to indulge in life a bit more. Granted both my parents have worked literally from the ground up to get where we are today. I would never disregard this as a fact, which is why I kept my life's issues at a minimum. It's something that has taken a bigger toll on me growing up. So we've identified that I do suffer from chronic depression...
The mentality I've grown up with for 19 years before I finally hopped off that bandwagon was that you have to work hard (and I mean hard) before you can enjoy anything.
At this point, I'm worried about a lot more than usual...
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"...I want you to hear me. Every time, every time we make love, we make, love. That's the strongest life force there is. Whether or not that results in another little person. To me it is creation. You fill me with life." Lois and Clark-The New Adventures of Superman
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