anxieties of the pasts

[its_legal@16]

true, i have loads of mates guys and gals, who respect me for who i am, then others are just well retards, and it's been upsetting, having all these jerks say and do things when they have no right to, they don't know me, to be fair no one knows me because i don't want to open up to people, because they just hurt me, i know it sounds cowardice and immature, but when you've had to put up with it since you started school in one form or another you really learn to look after number one and not give a **** for anyone else, tight wrong or otherwise, just talking about it with people i will never meet, people who don't know me just makes it feel so much better, and i suppose the half of it is just building myself back up, and gaining the confidence to screw them all and live my life in the way i desire, because what i do is normal, it is legal, they just a=don't think the same as me, they don't know my motives. so they judge me because of this. please don't be harsh about this, i'm doing a PHD in psychology i know what i need to do, i just want to talk about it really

[EvilEvilKitten]

- and thus the Fortress becomes a Prison all because of your own fears and insecurities.

[its_legal@16]

my fears, i fear one thing, loosing my family, and if you knew me, which to be honest thank god you don't you'd know what was wrong with what you just said. like i say i am here to talk to people, not an ice maiden who is obviously so far up her own ass to realise there is other people in this world besides yours self.

[EvilEvilKitten]

and I quote:

"to be fair no one knows me because i don't want to open up to people, because they just hurt me"

sounds like a Fortress that has become a Prison to me

ice maiden?? ROTBLMAO yeah, yeah *wiping away tears of laughter* Wow! Buddy, that is soo far off the mark that it is HILARIOUS!

okay short bio here: married to the same man - the best man on earth, for more than 30 years and still going strong, threw my virginity away at age 11 and never regretted it for a moment, two kids, two grandkids, retired military, independent professional in a very non-sexual field, and have enjoyed, thoroughly enjoyed, more men than you have had hot dinners and I fear nothing and no one and so have no need to hide my teeth, my thoughts, my attitude or anything else from anyone.

I blaze forth like the sun and that is not going to change any time soon. Why should I? I do no harm to anyone by being me - as I am. If that is not how you wish me to be, that's too bad and perhaps you need to rethink your position. Ask yourself why a supposed grown man needs me to be anything other than who I am.

I am here to tell you the truth - all of it - even the parts that aren't pretty, aren't nice, and aren't going to soothe your fevered brow.

I will tell you what others fear to tell you.

Now then. Any further questions, it's legal?

Oh! and thanks for the laugh!

[its_legal@16]

do you want a short bio of me? yeah you've had more men than i've had hot dinners isn't really something to be proud of, plus i prefer my food cold, sushi and that sort of thing, all i am saying if be a tad nicer in your delivery, because when it is late at night, i don't want a stranger shouting down my throat that i need to "grow a pair" and giving me a psychiatric dialysis. i'm here to talk as i have said time and time again. And i'd rather not have the "pleasure" of being insulted all the time, and being called legal is oddly annoying, this time i'm not blaming you, just call me 16, or as for my actual name, yes i would like to be on good terms with all members, just i found a lot of what you said rather rude and arrogant and my upbringing indoctrinated me to be a polite person and not take that from any one, i do not wish you to change, because everyone is who they are, and i do not wish to change anyone because i've had people trying to change me all my life, not my parents, they have been good to me and still are, just everyone else. and i have my reasons to be like i am, like you have yours, all i asked was to be a little nicer and not so offensive which isn't a lot to ask in my opinion.

also, don't laugh at me, that it just down right arrogant and rude, and uncalled for

[EvilEvilKitten]

Sure it is! It means I am a warm and generous woman who likes people, enjoys their company, doesn't have any hang-ups, accepts them as they are, and has the experience and understanding so many like and need in this world.

How could I NOT laugh? It was FUNNY, dammit!

Think about it: someone as "socially active" as myself being called an "ice maiden".

Come on. You see the humor in that!

As far as being nice goes - you have the others for that, you don't need me to be that way too. That would be like having coffee in your sugar instead of sugar in your coffee.

[its_legal@16]

yeah but i'm sure you are a nice women, just why not to all these people, i am nicknamed the devil, and no one knows why. it's because when i want to be i am an evil SOB so this looks like we have a contest, see who breaks someone first

[EvilEvilKitten]

What impact do you seriously expect me being nice or not to have on your existence, your future, your life?

[its_legal@16]

electrons formed into binary code, i don't know why i even bother with life any more, *shakes head*

ok simple underlying ideal for you, it would be to word what you say in a friendlier manner, thats all, it doesn't call for a huge off topic person debate

[EvilEvilKitten]

if I'm not nice will you die?

probably not.

so why do you even care?

my being nice or not

seems irrelevant to me

and I like debates

off topic or not