When An "Ex" Starts Doing Porn...

[oedipussy]

Umm, yeah - the title should be self-explanatory. I just found out that someone I used to be very fond of has started doing "erotic modeling". I'm not exactly surprised, and at least I can take some comfort in the fact that it's only softcore, but it was still kind of surreal and gut-wrenching when I saw it. I don't even know why this hurts me, but it does. I guess it's because I know I can't go back and now I've been reminded of what I'm missing out on. I'm not really looking for any advice - I just wanted to vent.

I suppose this is the price you pay for having lots of beautiful friends. Damn it! My life is so complicated... Well, I quit! I'm going to go drink myself to death now...

[lustforlove]

Turn that frown upside-down, your not going to make yourself very happy at the bottem of a bottle now are you?
This may sound harsh but it's how i see it. It didn't work out with this girl and i can understand that seeing her in this soft core film cold be a real slap in the face, but who gives a dam at the end of the day? you know you'll move on and you know if this was a while ago you were with this women than i guess you hvae already moved on. Just forget the film and get back to your life. Forget you ever saw the silly film and get over it, your were fine before you saw this film yes? than just forget it and carry on.

[Mr. Saint]

Hay, look at the bright side, now you can say that you slept with a model. *joking*. And its not really “porn”, erotic modeling is not that big of a deal.

[lnt1103]

Besides, TOO uncomplicated is boring.

[oedipussy]

Well, this actually isn't the first time I've had to deal with this situation, but it hits a lot closer to home now that I work in the modeling industry and everyone knows everyone else. It's one of those things that I'm just not going to be able to get away from. And THIS particular girl is a different story altogether. Things ended badly, and this just makes me feel even worse about it.

It probably doesn't help that I have the pictures sitting on my desk, just waiting for me to torture myself by looking at them again...

And yes, sera, whenever you read this, you know EXACTLY who I'm talking about.

EDIT: After a few drinks and some cigarettes, I've realized how damn silly I was being. I don't even know why this bothered me in the first place - In fact, now I think it's actually pretty cool that she finally did it after having listened to her talking about wanting to for so long. I'm happy for her. So I guess that takes care of that...

The end!

[EvilEvilKitten]

Why you feel so bad about it? - because you know exactly what is going to happen to her and who will be enjoying those pictures and how they will be enjoying them.

To a certain extent, she has given up privacy and control of her person.

[constantlylearning]

So Int, a little complication and drama are to your liking???

[lnt1103]

ya know.....given the choice I think I'd just rather have the experiences and memories and be a little uncomfortable once in a while than not have them and be bored, or lonely, or have turned out differently as a person. I'm a firm believer in the idea that all experiences, good and bad, are formative. And for all the different types of Hell that I've crawled through on my knees, maybe part of me would like to undo them or wishes they hadn't occurred, BUT I wouldn't trade this person that I've become because of it for all the gold in the world. Granted, in this type of moment, the memories will 'ouch' you a little bit, but also, take a look at how Oedy turned it around. He's happy for her that she made it. THAT'S what one should hold on to. Not the pain of 'what might have been'-that will submarine you every time.

[constantlylearning]

That was a good answer...........You seem "Golden" so all is well.

[JustAGirl]

"My blood runs cold
My memory has just been sold-
My angel's in the centrefold..."