KMB, you have to be able to be happy with yourself FIRST...If you can't find happiness within yourself, you will soon feel victimized. I've read your other posts about being snappy to others, at least you realize a problem..good for you for admitting that!

You could be putting pressure on your boyfriend by telling him he is responsible for your happiness...we are all incharge of our own feelings, someone else just enhances the deal

to be so sad about part of yourself in other postings and then being so happy with the above post, raises some red flags..learn to have self respect, to have control on your emotions, be able to love yourself first and be able to make yourself happy in a healthy way..good luck!
