Online love getting married - Help, What have i gotten myself into...
Ok so i am in desperate need of advice on what to do. about 3 1/2 years ago i randomly came across this guy on yahoo IM, we chated one afternoon and just exchanged information about ourselves. At the time i had a boyfriend who was living with me and me was living with his girlfriend in another state. We went from talking once every now and then online to eventually calling each other when we had to chance and were alone to where we are now. After almost 4 years, i am completely in love with this guy. I broke up with my bf two years ago and flat fell in love with this man i met online. He is the most amazing person i have ever had in my life and makes me feel like nobody ever has...only he is now engaged. He told me from the very beginning that he lived with her and that they had been together for like 8 years. Knowing that marriage is only the next step, i still allowed myself to fall in love with this man. Although he was the first to say i love you. So now we are in different states, he is soon to be married, im single, and i cant go a day without him. He is going to be married in 6 months and i now things will change between us. He says that he loves me and wants to be with me but feels like he owes her this marriage after 8 years. We live such different lives also i dont know that if we were able to be together that it would work.
My problem is this, he is son to be married and i am absolutely loosing my mind because i am so in love with this guy. He left for a week with his fiance on a vacation and we were unable to talk the whole time, i have never in my life been so depressed, i literally cried for a week straight to the point that i had to call in sick to work and i didnt hardly leave my house the whole time, i couldnt, i couldnt stop crying.
What do i do? Should i take a broken heart and try to end this now?? I would appreciate any advice.
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