what happened..?

[sexinfo101_]

this is a bit of a long story..i'll try and keep it short..!.myself and my x are both 17 and i was going out with her for 7 months. She had heard about me through a few mutual friends and eventually she set it up (without me knowing) that we'd both go to the same place one satrday night..the rest is history. We had pretty much everythin in comon, we we're crowned the ''perfect couple''...it took a month before she said she was in love with me...i was just so taken back by her that it wasn't long before i felt the same way...she told me that she couldn't ever see us ending, how i was perfect how we we're perfect, on one of our usual hour long phonecalls at night even tho she would call me a good few times in the day...everything was perfect...

then out of the blue..she said she needed a brake..that night i consoled her on the phone..but then i realised how attatched i'd gotten to her in such a short time....we got back together the next day..but it still never left me that..sometime this is going to end..and what would i do when it did...so late one night i got it into my head that i had better do it first..i was in a really sad mood..we were supposed to meet up that day for the first time all week but she couldn't..and i broke up with her....

she took to it like a duck to water...not one tear...we still talked every night..but everytime i asked how she was she just said 'i just think positive'... i told her i regreted it..i never said sorry...i wish i had..she said it was her fault that she was too busy..and that it felt wright to brake up...i felt we we're getting back together..she said she was still in love with me..i said the same..but one night she was at a house party and she ended up kissing another guy..(it so happened on the same night so did i..)..i rang her saying that i regretted it..but she didn't..i know she deffenatly didn't cause she did again the net night..i asjed her about us..she said she didn't want to talk about it.and from then on we havn't talked...not one call...nothing..i sent her a message...saying we should meet up sometime..she said that she'd send me a message sometime in the week to meet up..but nothing...

i've been a wreck the past month since that night...its all i think about.....and its tourture..i go to bed listing to our songs and end up not sleeping..the mornings are the worst..knowing that we havn't talked..i'm still in love with her....i don't know what to do.........can anyone make sence of this...cause i cant...and it gets worse and worse...any advise would really help..Thanks..!