Help me I'm so screwed!

[Oleander]

My life sucks.. I just need something to vent to cause I can't really tell anyone. I Think i'm pregnate... and I need to get an abortion! But i'm not 100% sure that if actually pregnate yet! Me and my boyfriend had unprotected sex, but he didn't cum inside me.. But there's still a chance that i'm pregnate!.. I'm so scared. 15 with a baby. That would rouin everything i've worked for. Everything I want to do. I need to get an abortion. I'm just a little uneasy about it. I mean I'm commiting murder. And it's my child. But we're not ready for this. It rouins everything. Mainly his life. He keeps telling me how this would f*** up everything and I know it would! I can't have a kid at 15. It's a discrase to my family name! I'm so lost, So confused. And I can't tell my parents.. Cause my boyfriends parents can't find out! Not at all!... I can't be a mother at 15! No way in hell! I want to be a real Mom. I don't want my baby to have a life like mine. A messed up one!! I wana be there for my baby! Be a real Mom. One who cared more about the title of parent than the one on her buisness card! I want to be financtually ready.. And emotionaly ready! I can't even do my homework on time, or do chores! How can I be responsible for a child! It's not like it matters anyway.. I'm getting an abortion for my boyfriend? Do you think that's the right thing to do?! We already named them! If it was a boy or girl... Drake Anderson Moroney or Kimberly Ann Moroney!! Isn't that so cute... Now that I think about it even more. I want to have this baby! But my biggest problem is my parents and Mike. and school. I need to finish high school, and I have 4-6 years of college to deal with. I have high goals for myself!.. And I want to furfill them, But I can't with a kid! I want a be a real Mommy! And I need my teenage years to have fun. I already lost my childhood to raising 2 kids!! I already was a mother! My mom was never there. And then lose my teenage years to being a Mom. again.. Raising a kid! I'm so lost, confused!... I need help serious help!

[demonbuttercup]

Oleander,
Im sorry to hear about your situation. But first things first, you should find out 100% whether or not you should be freaking out, getting abortions, or picking baby names!?!

I know how you feel, Ive been there. Not when I was 15 tho. But I knew the consequences I might be getting myself into, so I was kinda prepared. Luckily, I wasn't prego, but some people aren't that lucky.

Just find out for sure and get back to us... ok?

[Oleander]

Well Come to find out... I think it was all the stress that I was getting... I'm NoT pregnate.. I was just 5 days late! Which scared the living crap out of me considering I did have unprotected sex... I'm sorry for causing so much kaos and kind of over-reacting, but you do understand how one can do that right?... I hope so...

Abortion wise... I was highly considering it... Really I was... I didn't want this baby. It would mess up everything. But then again... Bringing another life into this world must be amazing. I mean even if accidents happen, You have to live with them right? I always told everyone else that everything happens for a reason!... But I was being hyprotical and not listening to my own advice... Maybe IF I WAS pregnate that baby was made for a reason, I don't know it but it has to have a reason... So... I don't know what I would of done. I caught myself writing my step-mother a note telling her that I thought I was pregnate. and that I wanted to keep it. But then I thought about Mike.. And then... He wrote me a note, told me how much he loved me and would support me. Even if I wanted to keep it for some reason. How he'd never leave me espically now. That really means something. That he's actually support me if I wanted to keep it, Knowing it wasn't that he wanted at all!

I'm planning on going to the doctors this weekend or this week and getting birth control to aviod this conflict. Still I cannot tell my parents, Cause it's a discrase to the family name, Putting your self at risk to have a child before marriage! So.. Does anyone know.. If a regular doctor can perscribe birth control to a patient? Like a sick doctor.. haha IF I have an ear infection them people? I'm so clueless to all these things. Hopefully this site will help me.. So If anyone can answer my question It would be really highly apperciated!
Can a regular sick doctor perscribe you birth control?

Well thank you all so much for being there for me and the support and the replys!