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apologies for the delay in replying. my regrets from my first time was that i was severly under the influence, had never met the girl before, and didnt actually remeber it till the next morning, i didnt have much of an active decision making process. to top it off, the girl was younger than me, making it illegal as i was only 15, and she told someone at her school about it who went off the rails, thinking i was some threat to the girl, only hearing the girls side of the story, and demanding that the girl should go to the police, and have me done for statuatory rape. as a 15 y/o who had just been out havinga bit of fun, who was taken advantage of to then be accused of statuatory rape shocked me deeply. i had to recover from this shock, and after ensuring there were not going to be any long term physical effects (we had used a condom, supposedly at my request, so at least something went right) i talked wit hthe girl and we decided that no more contact was to be had between us, and that was the end of it.
when i had later a relationship, some months later, with someone totally unrelated to the incident, we were in a situation where we could have had sex, we were both there, physically able, with proper protection in the form of a condom, plenty of time, and loving atmospher and relationship, we were all primed, and ready to do the business, and we were just about to start, when it suddenly hit me that i was still young, i still had the rest of lmy life to live, with a good part of that able to have sex. so Y did i need to do it now? what was the reason for having sex at just this moment? i decided there was no reason, i could continue, the relationship would go on, we would both still be happy, and nothing more would have been thought of it. but some sudden inspiration made me ask how she felt about it at that moment, and her thoughts were running parrallel to mine, we can do it now, or we can wait, it didnt matter either way, we were still young and had the rest of our lives ahead of us, the bad consequences of sex then would have been disastrous in the long term, had the condom split we would have been screwed for life, and life is a long time. thionking of the negative consequences is good, it makes u think abut how u will deal if something does go wrong, cause no matter how carefull u are, no matter how many precautions u take, there is always that chance that something will go wrong. we were content without haveing sex, so y risk it, we ended up pleasureing each other in other ways, and were happy in each others company, and that day was never looked back apon as a bad decision, or as a regret, it was a decision that was made, not a typical teenage decision, and i feel that shows that if i can be there ready and able to do the business, and stop cause there is nothign forcing me to, then i am ready to decide now that i can have sex, even if there is nothing forcing me to, and no reason to have sex, i can have it for enjoyment and still think about the risk, and take suitable precautions.
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