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might have put myself in a bad spot...
So I'm not completely sure if I'm doing anything wrong here...in the back of my mind I'm feeling guilty but I tend to over analyze situations - especially when it comes to girls - to a point where I'm not really sure what to do at all.
I'm in college...I work, I get good grades, my parents are proud.
On the other hand I play hard too. There's been a lot of drinking the past few months, and when I drink, I go girl crazy. I see myself do this and sometimes I don't like it, at the same time I have a lot of fun chasing girls, but sometimes it gets me into weird situations.
In a nutshell, I was interested in this one girl for the longest time- for years and years. Earlier this month she expressed some interest in me, which is always exciting to hear. We ended up seeing each other in harmless situations...at the library, out at bar. Of course, after we had gotten to know each other, one night we ended up dancing at a club and we went home together and had sex.
She had to go home (she lives several hours away from school) for a family emergency for a few weeks. An important characteristic to note about her is that she is very hesitant to let guys in. I can never really get a read on her, and so I was second guessing myself when it came to her feelings for me. I figured that our night together was a one-night thing and let it go. I was a little disappointed but ever since a bad experience with an ex I havn't let myself get too attached to anyone.
After she left, I drunkenly ended up going home with another girl I liked a week later. Now this girl has been way more open with me about her feelings. It's only been a few weeks since we slept together and she's already telling me how much she's fallen for me. It's a little overwhelming because I don't know what to do. I like her but I'm not ready at all to commit to anyone, and the whole "love" talk has freaked me out a bit.
At the same time, Girl A came back to school and has re-initiated things. She started texting me...a lot, dropping hints here and there about wanting to see me.
I guess I just don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to be in between these two girls. Another problem is that Girl B is in a sorority, and I'm friends with a lot of her sisters. I feel as if I hurt her the whole sorority is going to be pissed at me, especially considering that Girl B's sorority sisters HATE Girl A for some reason. I feel like I'm in an episode of the Hills. I feel immature, not proud of what I've done and I don't know what to do.
I've kept both girls at bay, just trying to avoid any serious conversation (I havn't gotten into any physical relations either). I don't think I'm leading them on.
At the end of the day, I like Girl A more than I like Girl B.
Any advice would be great.
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