Wanting my sexual identity back!
Hello everyone,
Obviously this is my first time ever posting on this site, so please be gentle on me. I will try to make this short...probably not going to happen.
So I have been married to a great man who is a great provider and loving father for 7 years. We never argue about money, our son, work, nothing...but our sex life sucks ass. I hate to admit it, but that part of our marriage is so bad. First off, my husband wants it ALL the time!! When I say all the time, I really mean it. He watches porn on his computer almost everyday, he is on websites, and he talks about it a lot. He is always feeling on me and telling me how attractive I am and that he loves my BIG BUTT. Sometimes this doesn't bother me, but other days I want to punch him in his face. I really don't understand how this man's sex drive could be so freakin high. Its almost a turn off.
Me on the other hand, I can go without...PERIOD. Growing up, I was molested for a long time by a family member, but I feel comfortable enough to discuss it with anyone. I don't feel guilty about anything and I feel that I am over it. I don't masturbate because I feel goofy or silly to be doing it and I honestly feel that I am not in touch with my sexual side. I don't know how to get it together because I want to have GREAT sex. I am never horny and I know this sounds sad, but I really don't know what turns me on. I talk to all my friends and I am always jealous of them because all of them get it on the regular and enjoys sex. I always come home to argue about how I'm not putting out.
So after this long story, do anyone have a solution or any suggestions on where I should start before I lose my mind completely? Thanks. AD8
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