[Loverboy19]

Maybe Im just silly or paranoid. I dunno. I got a story, sorry for the length but any insight would greatly earn my love and gratitude.

Well I have a relatively new girlfriend, we've been dating for alittle over a month now(I cant exactly remember when it happened) and I cant seem to rest my nervous little mind. I've dated a total of five girls but shes just...woah...amazing. So well Im afraid and/or not sure what to really do next with her.

God, sorry Im nervous as all hell, Im actually shaking while typing. Anyway I went out with her because I caught wind she liked me so I said she was cute too then sparks flew quickly. I took it slow with her at first, we only held hands on the first day but the second I invited her over to my dorm because she wanted to go to this big trip with me and a few of my friends. At my dorm, she practically pounced on me and we just ripped each other apart with passion. We left for the trip a couple minutes later and we simply held hands and stuff. After the trip was over the next day, I invited her over and we simply had sex for 3 wonderful hours. The next day we watched a movie and from then on shes been sleeping in my room with the occassional intercouse(Oh how I adore cuddling).

It wasnt till next week she invited me to her dorm(well did it there too) that I told her she was to be my girl to which she happily said yes to. FOr some reason though when people acknowledge(and they usually shout) that we're boyfriend and girlfriend we both suddenly feel awkward...Im not sure but we got that incommon, we just...dont really like hearing it. I've never been that way before, its strange. When we eat we both usually sit at different tables with we sometimes hug and kiss each other before one of us leave...sometimes we dont even acknowledge each other....strange. Shes very friend oriented, oh she gets her kicks being social and living it up around large groups.

Well it got worse, pregnancy scare. oh man did I freak but it got avoided.

Alone we light up the room with fierce intimacy but in public we simply kiss and hug then be on our ways...we havent even held hands since the trip. We're usually seperated between the hours of 10am to 11pm without so much as a call or text message. The only times shes loud and obnoxious about our dating is when shes drunk or slightly typsy then she parades about it and wont let me leave her side for a second(and if I did she shouts out 'wheres my boyfriend?!?) As days progressed we've had days where we simply talk from 12am to 6am at times. We say light compliments such as 'your amazing' and 'your one of the reasons I stick around this place'.

So ok recently, we had a lovey dovey couple of hours of us holding hands, kissing, hugging, and her holding my hand in public...we basically didnt let each other go even when people told us to get a room, Im not sure what brought on that event though when usually we're both so conservative around others. However we didnt have sex, she made sure her friend was alright(to my blessing of course). Next day we hung out in her room and kissed alot and I had to leave, we started texting saying we were horny so we set up a 'sex date' for tomorrow. We tomorrow came and she made sure I got down there and she wore a sexy get up and basically wasted no time when I got there. It was fierce kissing but embarrassingly...I couldnt get an erection, I was so....just...I hated my bad luck. She realized it was embarrassing and said 'Im just happy your with me' luckily after alittle I did and we had sex for about twenty minutes before someone obnoxiously banged on the door(then ran) and she was through because she was annoyed. Well I felt terrible because we were so hyped about it and it fell flat...and so I told her we're doing another tomorrow and shes for it...then we exchanged more words like 'your sweet' 'you make me so happy'. But I feel so...inadaquate that I couldnt pleasure her...

We have never fought, ever. I dont know anything we'd ever fight about even. We stabilize ourselves by constantly poking fun at and teasing each other(but we dont mean it). We usually play around by whose the dominate and whose the bitch of the relationship. Also poking fun at each other's differences(needless to say Im widely attracted to those difference). Also we've only been on two dates, we watched a movie together and i took her to a carnival.

My concern is, Im so frightened to show compassion in public or say any loving compliments because Im afraid she'll lose respect for me as the 'dominate male' and her believing I need her more then she possibly needs me. I might be paranoid...maybe Im such a loser I dont want to lose her. Im never met such a knockout before...but neveetheless, what should be the next step? What I should I do in this point of our relationship? Why are we so awkward to be with each other in public? What should I say to her?

Not sure how to progress...i mean Im really starting to get feelings for her.