[oxfordfox]

I have been reading these forums for quite a while and have only joined now as I am in need of some advice and I know that I will get the best here.

My problem is oral sex and letting my bf of 3 years come on me. The thing is that my bf has told me that it is one of his fantasies to come all over me after I give him oral sex as this is what he sees in the porn he watches and now would like to try.

And before I get too far into this I have made it perfectly clear to my bf that I hate giving oral and the thought of him cumming on me. I dont know what it is I it just makes me feel degraded and turns me off so much I would rather have no sex than to have great sex knowing that I have to do it.

But my point is that even though my bf knows I hate the act of oral sex he still pressures me to do it for him and knowing that the relationship is not just about me I have done it a few times for him but after each time he see's how upset and disgusted I am at myself he promises he will not ask for it again but he always does and its gotten to the point where after doing it i just curl up and roll to the other side of the bed while he kinda basks and goes to sleep not caring about the fact I have just done that for him even though he knows how it makes me feel like a whore.

The thing is I am willing to try new things and have tried to stop myself hating oral by using lubes doing different positions and by doing it in different places but I still feel the same about it and I just wish my bf would understand I have tried and not just say things like "Well that's what a loving gf would do if her bf asked her to" or " why are you being so stupid about it i give you pleasure dont I why cant you do this one thing for me"

Sorry I'm dragging on a bit but I just wanted to know is there anybody else out there who hates oral and the thought of their partner cumming on them? or is it just me being more of a prude than I thought and should I just get used to this?

any replies would be great.

also this way not meant to offend anybody that does like oral or their partner cumming on them I know people like a lot of different stuff and should do what makes them feel good. Its just not for me .