Only partially, Bear. Franklin still has unanswered questions from his opening post.
> I have done something terrible against my religion and who I want to be.
Not knowing what your particular "brand" of religion is, I cannot comment specifically; however, I do know a thing or two about religion in general. The complete answer is too complex to delve into here. For the sake of this discussion, can we agree that right or wrong, it is a matter open to interpretation.
Some people believe that porn in moderaton is not bad and that it can be an aid to fantasizing.
> I watched some transsexual porn and some transsexual on a web cam.
Knowledge is empowering. Having viewed the videos will not necessarily corrupt your mind or morals, or make you an evil person. It is what you do with the information that counts, Franklin. This is not unlike the saying:"been there, done that", now let's move on.
> I don't know if I am straight, gay, or bi. I want to be straight. I have thought about girls and still do.
Here is your answer:
Male / Female Sexual Behavior--If I like certain things does this mean I'm Gay?
> When I watch straight porn I never notice the guys in a sexual way.... I see the women sexually. I have never thought about being with a man.
Proof, again, that you are straight.
> What is happening to me? I am gay, bi, or just lost and confused.
I offer the notion that you are a normal, healthy, curious male.
> Could I being doing this because of a porn addiction?
Addicted? Only if you are consumed by watching any type of video so much that it interferes with your daily obligations, chores, and, responsibilities. So far it seems to me that you have a healthy curiosity and are being aroused by the action, and using it to further your ability to become turned on. There is nothing inherently wrong with this.
Do not make such a big deal out of this unless your religious beliefs dictate otherwise. I'm more concerned with what you do with the information you acquired by watching the flicks. If the only thing they accomplished was to entertain or arouse and nothing more, then the activity is harmless in my never to be so humble opinion.