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I'm not sure if we can work together. She doesn't seem to like compromise and it seems that if I don't do it then we won't stop fighting. I mean, I feel like I am trying too hard and draining too much energy in the relationship while she doesn't really care nearly as much as I do.
Last night we went out and were having a great time. Then all of a sudden when I tried to hold her and give her a kiss while we were shooting pool, she just pushes me away and says "no." So I ask her whats wrong and she just tells me that "she doesn't know." So I figure maybe she doesn't want to do that at the pool hall(which doesn't really make sense because she has been all over me at other semi-public places). Anyway, I cut down on trying to kiss her until we got back to her place. And even when we were alone, she got upset at me when I tried to kiss her. She said she just doesn't want me to touch her now. So I asked her to explain because I was confused and she wouldn't tell me anything. So I got a little upset at her lack of communication and that only pissed her off. She started going off on how she doesn't have to do anything she doesn't want to and she doesn't need to explain anything to me.
Anyway, we argued for a bit and then I tried to talk about it again. I guessed that the reason she didn't want me to touch her was because other people from her past have hurt her and she is worried that I might do the same. She said this was true and I asked her if she thinks I only want to touch/kiss her because I only want sex from her and she basically said she thinks that sometimes. I really don't get it because she already tested me once by making me wait to have sex with her. I hate those kind of test but I thought it was over with already. And I hate the fact that she won't ever tell me how she is feeling. If I don't read her mind and say how she is feeling, I won't ever know because she won't tell me.
I'm kind of frustrated right now because I feel like she only see's her side of things and doesn't care about how I feel. Maybe she just expects the guy to not have any emotions like that but I can't help but feel hurt when she tells me she doesn't want to touch me and doesn't want to explain why.
Sorry its a little jumbled.. I gotta go to work and didn't have time to get my thoughts fully together.
Thanks for reading.
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