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Im not trying to compete against his gf & I've said that I dont want anything to happen because if it did then my feelings would get even deeper & I dont want that. I dont want him back or anything, it didnt work before & it definately wouldnt now, but I generally like him as a person & I dont want to stop hanging out with him. We've always been friends (since 11) & I dont want the mistake of dating him & getting too attached to ruin our friendship, though I know it already has.
I know it may sound like im trying to make him like me or get him to cheat but i can honestly say thats the last thing I want. I do miss the affection, as I've said in the other thread he was my first bf so I kind of exagerated(sp?) my feelings in my head & think theyre more than what they are. So I just want the affection back, though not necessarily from him. Well, It cant be from him anyway, but I attached the feelings of affection & first time of actually being wanted, to him & thats why I like him. I dont think its HIM that I want, well it isn't really.
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