[Brandye]

There is much more to our masturbation than going through the physical motions. The mood and your fantasies play a very large part. Generally, our fantasies tend to be more romantic and less specifically sexual than men's. Old Hollywood musicals with a gorgeous woman being carried away by a dozen male dancers in tuxedos were the triggers for me when younger. Example, not that it will work for you.

With your family history you will be carrying some baggage that will make learning to respond more difficult than it need be.

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