[EvilEvilKitten]

Hey OP - so you had sex with this guy. GREAT! CONGRATS! Hope you enjoyed it!

Now why would he NOT want you as his girlfriend????
Your 'value' does not lie between your legs.

The reason I ask is because you seem to have some very odd ideas regarding sex and self-esteem. Enjoying sex with a man does not decrease your 'value'. As long as you're being responsible about it (always using BCPS and condoms), reciprocating, and participating - you're increasing your 'value".

How so? You are learning about men and about yourself. This is good. You are learning that sex is not love and vice versa. You are maturing and growing through your interactions with others. All of these are good things.

Made a mistake? Yes, when you called him up and whined to him about 'making a mistake' - you made a mistake. Stop it. Having sex is not a mistake. Whining about it all weak and blubbering is a huge mistake. If you want to enjoy him - do it. If you don't want him - then don't. You decide because it is your body.

But if you are going to indulge in adult fun - you're going to have to be adult about it.