[Brandye]

You waited nineteen minutes before bugging for a response. That is the definition of impatience and I suspect that is what is getting in the way.

Develop some interest that brings you in contact with men; something that will provide a basis for a relationship other than pure sex. You can be forward - I took the initiative in getting myself laid the first time - men often like that.

Most of all be careful. In your state women tend to take unnecessary risks with both pregnancy and disease. Getting your virginity out of the way is a great relief but not worth risking the rest of your life. Condoms plus vaginal spermicide are a must for what will likely be a rushed experience. Have them with you.

In the meantime your self pleasing is the best training you can have for sexual satisfaction later on.