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Originally Posted by EvilEvilKitten
The fact remains that you are wimping out because lust = bestial=sex - well, you have seen the results of that. The women go elsewhere! Thus your behavior reinforces your ideas. You have created and continue this trap because you FEAR.
Fear is your problem and all you have to do is : do what you fear to do and damn the devil to do his worse! Change how you define yourself! LET GO AND LIVE!
There's nothing wrong with lust!! I rather enjoy it!! *EG*
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I think you may be right. Though I don't know about nothing being wrong with lust...I'll concede that it's useful.
I get scared. For various reasons...none of them truly important. I also disrespect those who try to form relationships with me...because...I turn them down...because I don't trust their judgment in me. If I respected them, I'd trust them...and I wouldn't need them to crutch me up...so to speak.
Besides that, it's disrespectful to myself to think I need someone to crutch me up. I'm perfectly capable of living by myself (I think I've proven that much at least). I'm a bit clever, I can be kind, and sweet and gentle...and while I'm not an Adonis by any measure of the imagination....I can be...(no...I am) a bit attractive...I could even be sexy if I simply asserted myself rather than being passive.
As they say, there's a whole new world out there...And an old world to see with new eyes...filled with joy and pain and yo-yos with the sparkly bits...and sex...and intimacy...and warmth..oh the warmth and that tingly sensation when someone touches your skin...oh I love that too!
The question becomes how do I assert this without having it blow up in my face. Do I just walk up to her and say, 'You know, I've been keeping you away from me...because I didn't think you could deal with me....but you know what...I was wrong' and then just give her a big whoppin' kiss...or...do I just let this whole new thing settle and stabilize before I go off and do something a bit overly reckless that could undermine the whole revolution?