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First off I'd like to say that this forum is the best one I've found on the net. The diversity of the members opinions as well as their experiences, is uplifting and very much welcoming.
For myself, this is my first post, but not before I've read many threads in many different areas of this site.
I've come from a different sort of experience, which I know many in the world have had the unfortunate experience of being raped. First was when I was a child, 7 years old, and was also my unfortunate experience of obvious non-consenting anal sex. No one has to tell me about pain. I was 18 when I finally lost my virginity on my own accord (vaginal intercourse) however it left alot to be desired. At 21 I was raped again. At 24 I married, and had my first child. Sex just hasn't been a thing I was 'into'. I'm sure a lot can understand why.
However, with a lot of work, and lot of understanding of myself, and with alot of masturbation I've learned how to enjoy and even desire sexual contact. My husband has a very large penis, and many women may envy me, but it has it's definate downsides being that way. Even vaginal sex has proven to be painful if he thrusts in too deep.
On numerous occasions we have attempted anal sex. I trust him completely and want to be able to share with him something I have never shared willingly with anyone else. I feel in doing the act and allowing him this, that it will help me overcome what was so brutally done to me.
When he first mentioned it, I had the same reaction as others here 'Let me do it to you first and let you feel what it's like!' To my almost horror, he agreed. So out came the strapon, and I gave it to him. He didn't only like it, he loved it! So becareful girls, because you best be prepared to give it if he agrees, if that's going to be your tactic for rebuttal on this subject. It backfired for me!
However, it made me wonder what it felt like.
So we've tried, and yes the position of me being on top having control, lowering myself down onto him is the best position. He lays there patiently while I work my way onto his hardness. But his size is a major fear of mine. I only get maybe 1/4 way on if that, and have to back off.
In my journey for self healing, I wanted to have a man with a much smaller penis size, and found a very capable and willing participant. My husband also is very supportive of this. I find the 'other man' to be much more a sexual candidate for the 'vaginal deep penetration' positions I cannot enjoy with my husband due to his size. Between the two I get the best of both worlds, because what I can't have with one, I can with the other. No we do not have 3 some sex together.
Now I want to try anal sex with the 'other man' as I seem to think his penis size is much more suitable for my anus as opposed to my husband's monster. This other guy has tried anal sex before with his xwife and wasn't much into the act himself.
My question being, size difference matter? I cannot fathom my husband's penis being inside my anus, honestly, at times it's even too much for my vagina. Is there a different take or instruction on the larger end penis sizes, or put one into more danger of perhaps injury or damage? Neither partner is aggressive, so I know the patience will be there on either party, I just want so badly for a successful experience. The lube is always on hand and in plentiful quantities, as is the foreplay and slowness. I just really am at a roadblock with the size (length and girth) of my husband's size and find it frightening and would like some advice for overcoming that if possible, or if it would be recommended to just not go there at all considering the size/girth?
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