I've hated sucking off my past boyfriends -- they've all been total jerks, though, too.... I'm 26 & finally just starting to enjoy sex (even to stay present during sex without leaving my body is a terrifying & yet awesome achievment for me) -- 26 & just finally opening up to the very idea of letting myself just enjoy myself. What a ****ing amazing concept! My boyfriend now is almost 40 & an OBGYN -- there are some other issues I'm dealing with being a survivor of molestation, too ... he's the 1st guy I've felt sexy with, the 1st guy I actually desire.
But, I still haven't gotten to the point where I can can control -- even though I want to & even though he's asked me to *SIGH* I'm OK with 69 because then we're doing it together. My jaw does sometimes hurt because I have TMJ & so I sometimes take a break to nibble the tendons in his thighs, simply lick around the area, tickle his thighs with my hair, massage his legs & feet with my hands, etc....
I like to start at the bottom near his scrotum & lick up to the tip of the head, then lick down in a sort of swirl to get it all wet -- I pause to get my hands soaked with saliva or sometimes I just dribble spit onto the tip ... then I try to mix it up: sucking just the tip with 2 hands constantly sliding down the shaft one after the other, sucking just the tip while one hand pumps & twists the shaft with my other hand squeezes his testicles, flicking my toungue on the tip while holding the shaft & testicles in one hand with my other hand sticking a finger in his anus, pumping his penis in my mouth & sucking it deep and sometimes swirling my toungue around it inside my mouth with my hands alternating between his testicles & anus, etc. I like to swallow sometimes, sometimes I like to watch the cum squirt wherever it wants to, and other times I like to feel it splash my neck/chest -- my hands are my least favorite place for him to cum because I don't like it between my fingers
