I know how you feel. I lost my virginity after I turned twenty and that was with a guy I'd been seeing and sleeping with for about three months, as we both felt we were ready. Sure we fooled around but he was gentle and understanding and that made it much more special for me when we finally had sex. It was almost ten years later that I had intercourse again, this time with a guy who I'd know for a while and had chatted to and the expectation and the reality of us finally after all those years of wondering and he knew that I'd only been with one other man in my life, was a let down for both of us but mainly me. I felt like a failure and a disappointment but I had friends who I could talk to and gained reasurance from them.
Good luck in what ever you decide on how to take you relationship.
