th1029 im in a somewhat similar situation, and was just rambling on about it in another post... but reading what u wrote gave me some additionnal perspective... you summed up my feelings exactly.. i want my bf so bad sometimes, that its really hurtful that he doesnt ever seem to want me back in that same way.. and i dont mean just being horny, but in the all round physical-emotional-spiritual kind of way... and ive gotten the "i feel disgusting when i just woke up" excuse too
...well i call it an excuse but i guess to him its really the way he feels i dunno....
to all the people offering advice, i dunno how Th1029 feels, but personnally i dont see eating kfc in bed or sexy underwear as a solution, or erotic massages and things like that... if i went to the effort of doing something "Extra special" and it didnt interest him it would make me feel even worse about myself... marriage counseling may be a tad too advanced at this stage of the game, well for me anyway... the answer probably lies somewhere in between... like i mentioned in a previous post i do need to talk to my bf, just working on the details of how / when...
... and i already shave my pussy so i dont think that will help either :P