My life sucks.. I just need something to vent to cause I can't really tell anyone. I Think i'm pregnate... and I need to get an abortion! But i'm not 100% sure that if actually pregnate yet! Me and my boyfriend had unprotected sex, but he didn't cum inside me.. But there's still a chance that i'm pregnate!.. I'm so scared. 15 with a baby. That would rouin everything i've worked for. Everything I want to do. I need to get an abortion. I'm just a little uneasy about it. I mean I'm commiting murder. And it's my child. But we're not ready for this. It rouins everything. Mainly his life. He keeps telling me how this would f*** up everything and I know it would! I can't have a kid at 15. It's a discrase to my family name! I'm so lost, So confused. And I can't tell my parents.. Cause my boyfriends parents can't find out! Not at all!... I can't be a mother at 15! No way in hell! I want to be a real Mom. I don't want my baby to have a life like mine. A messed up one!! I wana be there for my baby! Be a real Mom. One who cared more about the title of parent than the one on her buisness card! I want to be financtually ready.. And emotionaly ready! I can't even do my homework on time, or do chores! How can I be responsible for a child! It's not like it matters anyway.. I'm getting an abortion for my boyfriend? Do you think that's the right thing to do?! We already named them! If it was a boy or girl... Drake Anderson Moroney or Kimberly Ann Moroney!! Isn't that so cute... Now that I think about it even more. I want to have this baby! But my biggest problem is my parents and Mike. and school. I need to finish high school, and I have 4-6 years of college to deal with. I have high goals for myself!.. And I want to furfill them, But I can't with a kid! I want a be a real Mommy! And I need my teenage years to have fun. I already lost my childhood to raising 2 kids!! I already was a mother! My mom was never there. And then lose my teenage years to being a Mom. again.. Raising a kid! I'm so lost, confused!... I need help serious help!
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