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You are not weird. You are a human being, just like all of us, and fears and preassumptions get in the way of logical decisions.
Do not try to conform to society's crazy ways. Be yourself. If you want a woman, go after her! Make your feelings known. Do not hide under a rock and wait to be found. I am much younger than you are (16), but up till the beginning of this year, I was the shyest kid around. I personally found it painful that I did not have a girlfriend, and my situation was similar to yours in many ways. The only difference is that I did not have a problem with guys my age (and the sex thing, which I still don't care about, that will come in the future when the time is right).
I was lucky, because that all changed when I met the coolest girl around, and I made it my mission to change my ways. I forced myself to lose my fear of socializing. I forced myself to speak up when I could not even think of the words. I forced myself to be a more outgoing person, a more friendly person. In the end, I was triumphant. I changed for the better, but only because I chose to do so. THere were many times when I fell face down, many embarising situations, but its from these mistakes that we all learn and gain experience. I survived the journey and I am now a different person, and I enjoyed it every step of the way. It took many months, but I changed. I also got the girl and am still with her!
You can learn so much by watching people around you. You should try that.
Trust me, everything happens for a reason. Things always work out the way they are supposed to, and you will have your day of triumph.
Also, can't you consider another job? One that does not require you to work during "single hours"?
Take care, and best of luck to you!
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