well this is my first post on here.
now i don't know if i'm just venting or asking for help or what but i thought i'd see what you think of my peculiar problem.
i'm 23 years old and i've never had sex. yep i'm a 23 year old virgin. odd typing that because nobody who knows me knows that, but i figure it's ok to admit that because no one on here knows who i am.
now before you all respond with the usual "there is no shame in being a virgin at 23" comments, allow me to elaborate. true there is no shame in being a 23 year old virgin IF THAT IS YOUR CHOICE. my choice is NOT to be and yet here i am anyway. an extremly unwilling virgin at 23 is a bit strange. and before someone says "it's sweet you are holding out for the right girl" as far as i'm concerned, my "right girl" is any girl who acknowledges my existence at this point. and none do. additionally i've never had a girlfriend and only been on one date in my life (which ended badly when the girl accidentily sliced her finger open on a combat knife and bled everywhere and started crying...long story)
i personally feel i am a reasonably attractive guy, and others have told me as much, still nothing. plus i'm a college grad, with no police record and i'm not on crack or something ....what gives?
thanks to my incredibly lame night job i'm working during peak "singles hours" and my nights off are during the middle of the week. (and who wants to go out on a wednesday night?!)
so i have very little social interaction with people my own age beyond cashiers and bank tellers. and i've found i get along VERY poorly with other guys my own age (i blame my latent jealousy of thier "normal" lives and pretty girlfriends). i don't go to bars or dances, i guess i feel very socially awkward so i have problems just making friends. not that i'm worried about getting regular "friends" at this point.
i'm horribly shy around women, i have no idea what to say, which doesn't matter because many of them seem downright snobbish or unfriendly toward me for some reason i don't understand. out of the three women i've asked out, i got chuckled at by one , backhandedly shot down by another....and you've already heard the story of girl number 3. whom i went out with 13 months ago. the last date i've been on. there is one other girl right now that i have a huge crush on but can't find at the moment, but i think about her constantly, which is wierd because even though she is hot, she is whiny, untrustworthy, and conniving - we cheated on our ethics class exams together in college though so maybe we are a perfect match....she's one of the few women i've ever felt comfortable with, and maybe felt like i had a chance with. ( long story about the two of us, some history here)
not having sex at 23 is bad, not being to get a date at 23 is painful. but i'm getting very antsy about the prospect of being an unwilling 24 year old virgin, then an unwilling 25 year old virgin and so forth.
so that's my spiel. i guess i should go if i want to catch that repeat of "dharma and greg", after all it is my night off. (man i'm pathetic)
